Journal Entries
October 20, 2003
“Still sad but trusting God. Quiet evening at home. ‘Thank You for protecting me and my children through the years. I love You Lord!’”
October 21, 2003
“Long day at work. I’m still sad but able to laugh. Quiet evening at home. ‘Thank You Lord for my many blessings. I love You!’”
October 22, 2003
“Quiet evening at home.”
October 23, 2003
“Good day at work. We laughed and talked. Quiet evening at home. ‘I love You Lord!’”
October 24, 2003
“Good day at work. Went to church for session with Cheri. I’m making good progress-our session was great. Home-made vegetable soup and puttered-I love puttering! All in all-good day! ‘I love You Lord!’”
October 25, 2003
“Stayed home today and worked on computer. Watched UK win. Just a day of doing what I wanted to do. ‘I love You Lord!’”
Today I decided
to concentrate on the positive. “Quiet evening at home. (x4) Home-made vegetable soup and puttered-I love
puttering! Stayed home today and worked on computer. Watched UK win. Just a day of doing what I wanted to do.”
Come to think of it I find it ironic
that one day I’m crying about being lonely and the next I’m thankful for a
quiet evening at home and a day of doing what I want to do. Let me think about that for a moment!
I think when
you are going through what I was at this time it’s natural to be
confused. My whole life had been turned
upside down. Everything I knew about
myself had been stripped from me.
Now I was working hard to find the person I’d
lost and that can be confusing too. I’m
so thankful that God’s word assures me that:
God didn’t cause my confusion
but He didn’t leave me confused. He saw
my confusion and was providing resources and answers to carry me through it to
the answers I needed. In the midst of
this storm of confusion raging around me I see His peace in the repetition of the words “quiet evening”.
Another
positive in this is that in the midst of my confusion my faith in God stood
firm. “Still sad but trusting God.” ‘Thank You for protecting me and my children through the
years. I love You Lord!’ ‘Thank You Lord for my many blessings. I love You!’ ‘I love You Lord!’ ‘I love You Lord!’ ‘I love You Lord!’” I knew where to go for
answers. I knew Who loved me in spite of
my feeling unloved. I knew Who was with
me in spite of my feeling lonely. I had
no idea what the future held. Still don’t
as a matter of fact. But I do know who
holds my future and my faith is secure in Him:
Where is your
faith? In whom do you trust? There is only one Person who will never fail
you. Put your hope and your trust in the
One who gave His life for you and now stands with His Father interceding for
His child:
Peace, Faith, Hope, LOVE
Father,
I’m thankful that You
bring peace instead of confusion.
I’m thankful You
bring peace in the midst of confusion.
I’m thankful for
future is secure in You.
I’m thankful my hope
in anchored in Jesus.
Thank You for loving
me!
In Jesus’ Name,
Amen
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